I want to be in love and I want it to mean something

Your eyes are the door to my heart
I see my reflection in every move you make
Melded together but seperately identifiable
The thought of you sends me spinning out of control
And yet that same thought has me calm and in peace, an undisturbed composure
My eyes ask and you react appropriately
My mind speaks and you listen and answer wisely
Can I ever understand this feeling you give me
A driven drive that leads me to insanity
A Parable told that can not be figured out
In it's purest form it can lead to great freedom
In it's unbridaled ways, it's an unquenchable fire
I don't want to put you out


I want to be in love. I can't remember that last time I was in love. Not my work a holic love. (what can I say , I love what and love work I love to do) Not the love of classic cars , cowboy boot, Frye's and jeans with a white button down shirt, not the love I have for all shades of blue, not the love for my children, but a love that is exchanged with a gaze that makes your heart beat faster. It makes you grin uncontrollably and it makes you do the dumbest things in your eyes.

The kind of love in which you surrender yourself and compromise for someone else. I don't mean losing who you are, but gaining and learning more about who you are. What do I mean (explaining for the hard core independent women)  You see, in love, even in friendship, you should honor, revere and expressively show how you feel about the other person. Love my friends is an action. It is what you are compelled to do for another even if it means turning away from them with prayerful hopes that they will come to a realization.

Love is the past , present and future catalyst of the relationship. Love requires seeding, fertilization , watering and constant tending that is never a chore . Love is mutual respect and honor. I would love to be with a guy I respect . That I know I could go to war with and either one of us will fireman's carry the other to safety and go back for our comrads.

What happened to that? I know it exists outside of myself otherwise I wouldn't feel or desire it.  I know in a world of twisted images we are spoon fed from birth that there is the truth .

The Truth is Out There
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